Well, he finally let me go! And all I did was remove him from my Top 24 friends in MySpace, and change my status to "Single" I think that's what finally gave him the hint that this relationship was not going to work out.
He left me two messages in my inbox both of them cursing me out with every curse word in the world, and quite a few insults. He also wished that all my future relationships fail. Of course I sent no response to those messages. Although he probably blocked me so I wouldn't be able to anyway. If I were able to send any messages and chose to do so, I would only wish him well in the future. I would never bash him the way he bashed me. All I wanted to do was end the relationship without any bashing or anything like that.
At first, I felt guilty about breaking up with him because he had given me so many gifts such as CD's, DVD's, and candy. But my mom told me that it was his choice to give me those things and she's right. I may have told him about what kinds of CD's I'd like to get, but I never begged him to get me those things. one thing I did do was appreciate those gifts. He really didn't have to give me those gifts, but he did choose to do so.
Now I am officially free! I'll probably still feel guilty about this break-up, and at times I feel like I'm the bad guy. I wonder if all break-ups are like this? this is after all, my first break-up with a boyfriend. They really are hard! I didn't mean to hurt him, that was not my intent. I jsut don't think we were a match. I hope he finds someone who is a match for him, someone who likes more than just a rock band!
Speaking of that rock band, the reason why we both got together in the first place is because we both like the band Rage Against the Machine. I love that band like how I love The Who. But here's the thing, I don't listen to these bands all the time! I get what I call "Moods" for certain bands. I'll listen to them for a good while, then I'll switch over to another band and listen to them for a while. What he did was listen to Rage Against the Machine every single day! Whenever I was on the phone with him, he'd be praising that band all the time! It also drove me crazy when he'd be talking about a particular band member, whenever he said their name, he'd say what band they're in! For example: If he was talking about Tom Morello, he'd say "Tom Morello of Rage Against the Machine/Audioslave..." You see how annoying that would be? Especially when he did that a lot! I still love Rage, but I can't listen to them right now! He's almost made me sick of them! Don't you hate it when a certain song or band gets ruined whenever a friendship or relationship ends? Hopefully I can listen to that band again, but not right now.
Well, it's good to get all that out! I hope you're all doing OK.
